*sick*

not been updating for the past few days..been sick...partly is 'cos of my neck injury,partly is the weather,slight fever and flu again...went xray for my neck..hopefully nth serious to my neck bone..haha....
but nice weather lately though abit cold...

clean my room's window on rainy days,and i didnt locked back my window..luckily i'm nt stayin on ground level...usually wont open e windows,but was feelin windy wif windows open,and saw some shinning stars in the sky...twinkle twinkle little stars......

to eve:haha,wat u wan to noe wor...anythin nothing much to update u guys also la...haha...jus abit of my own prob only...haha..u guys should be the one updating mi wor..yeah,tink u guys should organise j-gang session...hmm...can we hav a nice dinner at sabby hse or wat...miss our bitching session...haha...

'cos nt feelin well these few days,been stayin at home resting,and i start thinkin nonsense thing again...i feel tat i've my lost my way...i couldnt see the way in front of mi...and i start wondering what i really want in my life...??and i start hating my life....sometimes how i wish my life could be a little simplier...lead a simple life with a happy family,with all my beloved frens,but it doesnt turn out to be the way i want...i'm just a useless,spoilt brat in somebody's eyes...how i wish i can be a little happier now...how i wish i have lesser worries now...how i wish i can go into a deep deep sleep with a sweet little dreams now...how i wish i can go to fairyland or wonderland now.... indeed how i wish....

*drink more water*
*take care,my friend*

12:03 PM

change song again...change to �克群 - �屑纪念
but hor,veri weird leh,how come when i go to blog n read rite,the song will kind of repeat,then like got double songs playing at e same time...can anybody help to solve this prob..??

watch just like heaven wif a old fren of mine...hmm,the show okie oni,not really worth $9..haha...luckily my fren paying..heheee..certain part of the show quite funny also....
well,actually jiejin wanted to harry porter wif mi,but i'm nt intrested in harry porter so she decided to watch wif her frens...haha...

well,dun worry abt mi,i'm really fine..its just tat sometimes i really think too much..haha..esp during nite time,before sleepin,i tend to think more....no worry,i'll solve the prob myself.. i know i sound stupid by helping tat bastard wif $$..mayb i'm kind by nature ba...dun scold mi liao la,i promise i'll try nt help him,okie...

went kbox wif jiejin n joyce ytd,haha..sing till 4+ den decided to headed to town area for shopping..saw a soft toy at hallmark at taka..so cute,with its eyes closed...and on our way hm,we saw 2 giant dog,look like golden retriever outside e orchard mrt station....eh,i mean e real dog hor,nt fake one hor...the cute so cute,so obedient,but quite old aready,the owner say the dog 6yrs old aready..dog's 6 yrs old=human's 42 yrs old...
i think i have to admit i'm old aready..shop for 1 whole day again,and muscle start aching again...my neck pain again....2day got to rest at hm..neck pain coming back to haunt mi...think i haven fully recover from my injury last week...wish mi luck ba..

its easy to be bad,but its hard been a good person..kind of tired in terms of emotion,duno how long i can still withstand everything...gonna bersek soon...
how i wish i can have a long sleep and nv wake up again..
how i wish i can go to places like heaven where no worries only happiness....
i saw angels in my dreams..flying happily around mi,giving mi joy and happiness that i yearn to have....
if i have the abilities,i wish to backpack to other places for a long long time,leaving this sad place and headed to a place where i find happiness....

fairytales are just a myth,a legend...we can never be the same as the characters in fairytales,happily living with out loves one...there just too much things we have to care in this world....

*lost*
*miserable*
*emotional tired*

2:31 PM

thanks everybody for the concern...

i'm okie la...
just that i tend to think alot when alone...dun worry for mi,i'm okie de,i promise..well,sabby,jus a bastard....there r lots of bastards on e world,and i think i'm jus tat unlucky one to meet one bastard in my life....

jin cai & louis is in duno wat type of investment to earn fast cash and ah cai recommend mi ,he explain to mi,but i dun quite understand him also..haha...maybe can meet up wif him and know more ba...

i duno whether is mine com got prob or wat..my blogskin color seem to change abit..the center part of e box...

hmm,wish i can get away from here for e time being,like having a short vacation out of e town..i think tat will be nice...haha...

*big flu last nite*
*take care,my frens*

10:33 PM

*crying in the rain*

been veri moody ever since i know tat bastard...got to settle e bills for tat freaking bastard...got to work hard liao..think i cant get a hp temp aready...i tink alot of things i can get it nw temp...poor mi...how i wish i can get a chance to win 1st prize in lottery,den i can solve my finance prob...haha..

eve ah,ur bro okie ma..??how come so sudden..??when ur family noe abt ur bro's illness..??i hope everythin is okie wif u...

why everybody's life is full of colors but mine only black and white...??why i just cant open myself to others...?why am i always avoiding....??
i jus wish to get out of this complicated and stressful place...i jus wan to lead a simple and happy life...sigh..why i always like to think things till so complicated

*sad*
*take care*

8:14 PM

thanks for those who are concern abt my neck prob...its almost fully okie nw,jus abit of pain if i do big big action...

sorie for the past few days if i throw tempers at u,cos wasnt feelin great plus my neck is givin mi prob...

I'm sorry...

i tink i really duno how 2 take care of myself despite i'm aredy 20 tis yr...i need someone to take care of mi for the rest of my life...haha...
after my neck prob,my eyes start giving mi prob again...my eyes problem has been haunting mi for the past few yrs....i tink after my eyes okie,den i guess either my stomach of flu will come back n haunt mi again...hahaha...

saw the news about downloading song from internet..hmmm,people,pls be careful while downloading songs from net huh...they caught some ppl again...anyway,got any nice english song to recommend ma...??

arghh,why i always to jackson on minesweeper on msn de...??arghh!!

*take care,frens...*
*drink more water n hav more vitamin C*
*miss u guys,see u guys soon*

10:44 PM

*crying*
*tears drop*

it hurts.
it really hurts...
its unbearable....
nobody cares....

basically i cant move my neck n head cos it hurt...tat stupid freaking brother of mine,dun even bother and even ask mi to return dvd for him...cant u see i'm in pain ah...if u dun hav the time 2 return 2day,cant u return ytd...is not tat i dun wan help u return now wor,but how 2 help when i even got prob turning my head now!!... still dare to say i throw temper..still dare to say i act pain only...wait till ur neck is in severe pain den u will noe how i feel....

freaking idiot!!!

haix...now i got prob having shower,cant even lift my left hand up..cant even rest properly....nobody cares...everyone jus thot it was jus a minor pain...i can take pain but the pain is killing mi now!!!

when will people truely cares abt mi...??
when will people truely love mi for who i am...??
when will people truely concern abt mi...??

*its all nothing but lie*

*agony pain*


5:38 PM

damm tired today...went park mall wif jiejin n sihui to buy some nuskin products for my ugly face..den went ps for lunch den after tat headed to wisma for shopping..bought a normal t-shirt from OP for normal wear...alot of sales goin on but no $$ and also nth 2 buy also...x'mas is coming,but didnt manage 2 see all the lights along the whole stretch of orchardcause was in indoor during the night....people,where's my x'mas presents..??haha..

sabby,wah,u work at music company now ah..??which music company wor..??got any famous artisites ma..??haha...ur director young or old de,handsome ma...??haha...so gd,pay 4 ur meals when u r out wif him....anyway,nice to hear tat u enjoy ur work...

last nite(fri nite),lixin was superb funni...she called mi abt 2am+ and asked whether she could come over my place for a nite anot,i thot she 4get to bring her keys out..in e end,she told mi,she dun dare to go hm since so late liao cos recently got a girl commit suicide at her block so she scared abt tat la...haha....our da jie so funny de...she told mi she wan 2 test whether her 'ren yuan' gd anot,see got ppl wan 2 take her in for a nite anot..hmmm,i wondered whether she called other j-gangs members ma...

thanks for ur concern,jackson...i'm much okie nw..no more stomach prob 4 the time being...flu gettin okie also,but i tink e flu will be back soon also...ahaha...was out 2day,so in the end,my bro n JJ was locked outside my hse cos nobody was at hm and my bro 4get 2 bring keys...haha...my mom tink JJ was lookin for mi during e noon..haha...of cos JJ will look 4 mi cos i always gave her carrots to eat...haha.....

*x'mas coming*
*hot weather*
*drink more water,ppl*
*take care*

12:50 PM

new blogskin...nice and simple...nice colors too....
hmmm,enabled the comment page but doesnt look right,nvm,i'll try n make it right...

feel kinda moody these fews days...think because of hot weather,maybe 'cause of PMS,maybe 'cause of not having a gd rest...been having nightmares these few nights also...been chased either by bad guys or nasty dogs...and some other nightmares which make mi cry when i wake up,but couldnt rmb wat nightmares i had earlier on...

stomach not feeling well also,went to toilet for 'big business' for almost abt 4-5times today...went home slightly early n take medicine...wondered wat hapen to my faulty stomach..flu not recovered yet...the flu's coming back n haunting mi once again...sian....gonna die soon...

haix...gonna real broke soon..got to buy handphone and gonna sell e faulty LG phone,maybe can get some $$ back...gonna get a new mouse to replace the faulty mouse for pc..gonna save alots of $$ for alot of stuffs..haix,if only i strike lottery..haha...

jackson recommend mi sony ericsson phone wif good functions and i'm still thinkin which phone to get...should i get SE k700i or Samsung E630C or Nokia 7260 or Nokia 3230...??actually i dun really need gd phone,as long as can call in and out,can take pics,gd graphics,can already...

*lack of sleepness*
*nightmares*
*damm bad weather*
*dying soon*
*take care,people*

1:34 AM

change the song to jay zhou's song - �瑚海....its by jay zhou and lara(from nan quan mama)..happy listening to the song...


was quite free 2day so come to blog...intend to go m'sia on sat,but jiejin cant go...haix...mayb we go window shop in town area ba since jiejin cant go johor wif us... :(


went to watch 'all about love' by andy lau...comments from jiejin was so bad..she say it was a boring story...e girl beside mi more worse,say charlie cheung was ugly looking...oh god,at least ppl more gd looking than u,okie...actually the show nt bad la,but the pace is too slow la,therefore make ppl think tat its wasnt a gd show...


read from sabby blog tat sentosa was cancelled last min..i'm sorie,babe...next time,next time i promise i'll go wif u guys,okie...


anyone noe where to get cheap hp w.o upgrading phone line..jackson told mi to upgrade my phone,but cant upgrade liao,cos tat time mommy bought a phone n she upgrade e line...haix..sad...mayb u guys can recommend 2nd phone wif gd quality..hehee..kinda broke..anyway,mi nt going for mayday concert,e 2nd ex tixs was sold out too,so no worries,jackson,i'll save e $$... =]


anyone wan chalet...??its been a veri veri long time since i go chalet aready...can dun ask poly gang 2 go...i tink i'll go nuts wif them around...haha..maybe we organise one for j-gang during my bday next yr or wat de...haha....no sabotage of cakes is allowed for my bday next yr hor...old aready,no more sabotage,pls grow up...hahaa.... =]

12:15 PM

went suntec for hit award last nite wif jiejin and joyce...sad thing was i 4get to bring my glasses so e whole nite to mi was blur....during e 1st haf,still nt too bad la,but after tat,veri bored liao..i tink tis yr hit award veri bored lor...its either yanzi or lin junjie who get the awards..i see them goin up the stage i veri sian at e last part...i like tat zhou hua jian part...his song really accompany for the past 20yrs,but so sad,he oni sing 2 songs,should hav ask him more songs...


sabby ask mi go shopping later but no $$ liao,cant window shop la,i'm tempted to buy things de la..i'm gonna save $$ for new handphone..gonna save $$ for Mayday concert,been kind of forced by joyce to go la...if going,gonna pay her monthly instalment for e tix $$..haha...gonna save alot alot of $$ for alot alot of stuffs....sabby ask mi go sentosa tml....haix...dun wan la...i dun get tanned easily also,and i cant swim also,i also duno go for wat wor...


jus bought JAY's November Chopin album...hmm,this album nt too bad la..gd attempt...haha...i like e duet song wif lara..i tink tat lara is the girl from nan quan mama de..she got a sweet and nice voice...the song nice la.maybe can be next top duet song after Wu Ding....hehe...


going dating wif JJ later,so sabby,later shopping see how la huh...hehee....


*busy*
*lack of sleep recently*
*black eye appeared*
*really take care,weather damm bad now*


*JAY ZHOU ROCKS*

1:43 PM

*happy holiday*

JJ so adorable...bring her down for a walk this afternoon,oh man,she's so active and she's greedy,always give us a veri pathetic face by asking us for food...haha...she knows she will get to eat the small chopped carrots if she pose for mi to take pics...so cute... went running wif JJ during noon time when bro went IMM...
















got tons of works to do...haix...sad...
sunday,anybody wan go sentosa,pls give ur attendance to sabby,thanks...haha....


*weather is hot,drink more water*
*take care*

10:44 PM